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Testimony from England on the Ancient Paths of the heart
A few weeks ago, I went to see my doctor, and as I had all the symptoms of angina he prescribed blood pressure tablets and a Glyceryl Trinitate Spray, together with an urgent appointment with the Rapid Access Chest Pain Clinic.
A few days prior to my appointment at the hospital, the Lord woke me up in the early hours and started to bring to my remembrance my relationship with my step-father of fifty years ago, which wasn’t good. Although over the years, I had dealt with a lot of areas with regard to my step-father, the Lord that morning wanted to delve deeper into the pain, wounding and trauma of that relationship. Needless to say, there were a lot of tears, repentance and forgiveness that morning but, I know, the Lord did a very, very deep healing work.
The good news is that the investigations by the Cardio-Respiratory department were a negative test and I was discharged, but I have no doubt in my mind that it was the Lord’s deep healing work in the early hours of that morning that brought about the negative test. THANK YOU JESUS THAT YOU WERE WOUNDED FOR OUR TRANSGRESSIONS, BRUISED FOR INIQUITIES, THE CHASTISEMENT FOR OUR PEACE WAS UPON YOU, AND BY YOUR STRIPES WE ARE HEALED!
There can be many wounding situations in our lives, especially in our childhood and teenage years, that we can disassociate from but when the Lord shines his light and exposes the pain and the trauma, what a joy and freedom it brings! I PRAISE the LORD for God’s Foundation Builders, and for Valerie’s teaching on the Ancient Paths of the Heart as I have gleaned so much. I would encourage everyone to seriously watch and study these videos, as it such a timely teaching and such a blessing!
June, Lancashire, England.
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What you talked about today is what I have been dealing with for some time. I have felt that I was the epitome of evil, that I needed to constantly justify my right to exist. My Father once told me that they wanted a boy when I was born, which means I was rejected from the time I was in the womb. I felt that very keenly. I was also a collicky baby, so I’m sure I created a lot of frustration for my mentally ill Mother and my Father who never held us as children. I have learned that we have neurons called “mirror neurons.” When we are new to life, we have no frame of reference other than what others give us, so we mirror their responses to us. I learned to reject myself just by mirroring my parents’ responses to me. What you said about God bringing us to a place of ‘no reputation’ was really freeing for me - it doesn’t mean I’m worthless.
I once had a dream where every person had a small child with him. I believe it was each person’s inner child. A decree was put out that everyone must kill their small child. Each person had to go to the ‘killing place and hand over their small child to be killed. I didn’t want to do that so I tried to escape with my child in a car. Unfortunately, the traffic was bumper-to-bumper and was not moving. Someone saw that I was trying to escape with my child and pointed me out, so we got out of the car and ran. We went to this place where women were putting people in large boxlike suitcases and shipping them out so they didn’t have to kill their child. My little girl said, “wait” and went and got another little girl to get in the box with us. I was wondering if there was enough oxygen in the box for all of us. I didn’t know who the other little girl was. End of dream.
At Ron Horner’s seminar in February (I live-streamed it), when he had us go into heavenly realms, I first got a note from King David that said, “God is merciful.” Then my Mother and Father came up to me and asked me to forgive them, which I did. Then I saw the box that I had gotten into in that previous dream and it was opened. I and my first little girl got out, then the second little girl slowly moved and got out, barely able to stand, was kind of in a stupor, like she had come out of a coma. I realized that was the real me. I had tried so hard to be acceptable to other people from the time I was little, that I didn’t recognize that little girl as the person I was.
Later, when we went back into the heavenly realm, my parents and grandparents were there, and I asked each of them to forgive me. Then I saw myself as a baby in the arms of my Heavenly Father, being comforted and loved. I immediately became enraged. No one was supposed to love or comfort that baby -- that baby was rejected, unacceptable! It should not be given any hope or love. Those were the thoughts that came up in me. I realized that I had utterly rejected the person God made me to be, and that was a sin. As I saw it, God had made me unacceptable to the rest of the world, so I had tried to make myself more acceptable by not being the person I really was! That’s why the two little girls, inner children, one real and one fake. I repented for rejecting God’s creation.
What you said about God making you ‘a person of no reputation’ was really healing to me because it released me from believing I had to be a person that was important to someone to be allowed to live, to exist.
The eyes -- I have a cataract in my right eye that I was told needed to be removed. I am very reactive to plastics, and since they replace the lens in your eye with an acrylic one, I cannot do that. The surgeon told me I would just have to go blind then. I have found alternative ways to treat a cataract, but I don’t have the money to do that, so I have been asking the Lord to heal my eyes. I also have a cataract in my left eye, but it’s not as developed and it doesn’t affect my vision the way the one in my right eye does. I do have a brown spot in my left eye that my eye doctor can’t explain. She doesn’t know what it is. So, I’m definitely claiming healing in my eyes!
My heart -- A week ago Saturday night, my heart was thumping in a weird way so I took my pulse and bp. My pulse was 37 and my bp 99/47 -- a little low! When I felt my pulse, I found that my heart was skipping every other to every third beat. After the skipped beat, my heart would do a big thump, like it was restarting. I spent Sunday morning in ER. They said I was having pre-ventricular contractions, so it wasn’t really pumping the blood through my heart. I realized I had been more weak and light-headed than usual. When I saw my chiropractor, Dr. Day, she said it was a pinched nerve in my vertebrae that was causing it! It was mostly gone after a couple treatments, but it got me thinking about the spine, and what the Lord highlighted to me was the Kundalini spirit (snake spirit) from Hinduism.
I had done a prayer of repentance for that spirit after I did the Freemasonry stuff, and I felt a release and saw the snake crushed at the bottom of my spine; but I remembered that I did not see the snake leave my body. As I researched it further, what I found is that the Kundalini and the Python spirit are the same, and that Freemasonry and the kundalini are very closely related/intertwined. We have 33 vertebrae and freemasonry has 33 degrees! I did another 42 page repentance for the Kundalini and I felt that the snake moved out of my spine but there was still something in the top of my head ( my mind, I think). You said something today that, I believe, dealt with that as well. A year and a half ago when I was returning from walking Toby, I had a vision of a large python curled up in front of the back porch -- it was curled in 3 rings and 10 feet high! I have been asking the Lord what I needed to see from that, and I think I have a full picture, now, of what He was showing me.
Because I felt so rejected and subsequently totally rejected myself, I was wide open to Satan’s alternatives. The python spirit/kundalini is specifically focused on thwarting people’s destiny. That spirit was instrumental in my life since I had rejected God’s design for me. No more! are.
